hey acht here, doing some...journaling? just wanna talk about our system, because i love us. we have a very silly dynamic with each other, i think peri being violently against my new anime husbandos is entertaining. no shade that is slash pos. he has a very refreshing perspective on some stuff. i appreciate vriska a lot, that is all i'll say about her. when it comes to switching its...weird! i think we definitely have something between switching and layering going on. some traits stay no matter if me or peri is in front, though we could just have similar traits! this is all very new...and confusing and well, not scary, it's exciting, but uncertain. like how do i still think we're not real when i 1. am different from the previous core that got split up in a few major ways and 2. peri literally fronted for like 24 hours and that was NOT Me so. i gotta give up on the "ahhh are we real ahh" thing. vriska and peridot can only say "WE'RE LITERALLY RIGHT HERE" so many times, yknow. oh headspace! im so scattered. anyway our headspace has been similar since about...hummm 3rd grade. as a very young whelp, we were FASCINATED with tulpamancy. as such we tried and failed terribly to summon headmates or whatever. yeah. so anyway while we were trying to do that at the age of 7 we made this shitty room in headpsace like two couches facing each other 2 feet apart. peri tried to change this recently but it went back. we are cursed to have the Couch Hall forever but its kind of iconic so... we have a crappy house in a field surrounded by a mysterious forest, though i can only...load this in? when very focused on it. wwhen others are in cofront with me i usually just see them in White Void. i wanted that to be a control room of sorts but that didnt pan out. too much processing power. oh, i may mention we tried the whole "SUMMON HEADMATE" thing *again* euh...in whatever the month after march is. and it did kinda work but then that dude went away, which is sad they were chill. eventually we accepted our brain was not capable of plurality...heh...woops? i just think its funny that we tried SO hard to get headmates, never worked, then we got fucked up for life by people we thought we could trust and the brain was like "okay its finally time".

though i guess that's how that usually works... i dont love thinking of ourselves this way, yet i cant help but see myself as a forever scar, just as real as the one we made with the sharp edge. woops got depressing. uhhh stream my music - acht